Happy Birthday Mom!

Mom would have been 62 today. Oh how I miss her. She is sooooooo beautiful!

I miss her! What else is there to say.

Happy Mothers Day!

I don't think about Mothers Day very hard. I focus on me being a mom myself. However yesterday I found the feelings bubbling up as I looked at photos and thought about my gorgeous mom. The most intense feeling I have is a feeling of desperation to see her, I feeling of wanting to lay down and throw a huge fit that I cannot accomplish this. Finally patience and acceptance come back and I try to look forward to the day, the day that we will be together again. It will come!

Grandma update

Grandma is doing so good. She is back home and walking and talking. She is forgetting things a little more than she used to, so that is frustrating to her but she is grateful to be back home. I am so proud of her and all her hard work to come back to us!

7 years

As I think back about the anniversary of my mom's passing 7 years ago I think about the things that we were doing. We were taking turns laying with her in the bed. Feeding her, painting her toenails, shaving her legs, combing her hair. Even a bit of laughing because laughing and crying go hand in hand. I miss her so very much. As hard as you fight to keep the memories clear and present they do fade. Time heals nothing, your memories just fade and you get used to your new normal life. My heart still aches as I imagine it always will. We are 7 years closer to being together again and I am looking forward to this so much! I can't wait to see her vibrant smile, her tender blue eyes, hear her voice again, touch her skin, hug and kiss her and talk about anything and everything. I can't wait to see her with the grandkids, seeing how much she loves them. When I see her again I just may not let her go ever.

Memories at this time of year. We are seven years closer to being together again!

Created for greater things

In the gospel of Jesus Christ you have help from both sides of the veil, and you must never forget that. When disappointment and discouragement strike and they will you remember and never forget that if our eyes could be opened we would see hourses and chariots of fire as far as the eye can see riding at reckless speed to come to our protection. They will always be there, these armies of heaven.