Grandpa passed away last week. May 27th to be exact. I love my grandpa! We have spent so much time with him. He has a keen wit and a really funny sense of humor. I don't know if many people know that because he is usually grumpy because he doesn't feel good but he could make us laugh like no other. He and grandma's relationship was so fun to watch. They would get on eachothers nerves a little but always held hands and called eachother darling. I'm so happy he is out of his pain. He has really suffered these last few months. I know my mom was here I felt her a few times and I know it for sure. I know she was here to guide him back and he was so happy to see her. Seems so strange to trade places just like that. Now we are all here and mom and grandpa are there. I look forward with eagerness to see them again. Now I just worry about grandma. She is stalwart and has amazing health but this is a change for her and at 90 years old its hard to keep up with. I just can't imagine a world that they are not together. They are made for eachother and my heart aches for her. It just doesn't feel right. We will keep on going on and look forward to our reunion someday.
At some point I think you stop looking back and start looking forward. Well that has happened to me. I couldn't really tell you when it happened but I am definately looking forward to our reunion. Each year that passes represents a shorter time until we get to see mom again. I even let myself get excited sometimes. I always thought that after so many years had passed since someone had died that the ache went away and to my surprise it doesn't. Its always there because she is my mother and that relationship will ache for me until I have it again. I love you mom!
Christmas traditions are so fun. These are all mom and dad's cute grandkids. Dad always gets us girls matching presents and he did so good this year! We absolutely loved what he got us and dressing alike is always fun! We miss mom more than we can say. I can't wait to be with her again!
This makes 6 girls and 7 boys which would have been so fun for mom. She would have enjoyed the boys as much as the girls. I know she knows them and is with them sometimes. The difference is I don't get to see her with them. This fact is heartbreaking for all of us. These events she would never miss.
Shannon did great and Baylor Kent Kidman is a really good baby and makes her family complete. Mom I miss you and I wish life would have turned out the way that we could have been together longer. My heart aches to see you again!
The anniversary of moms passing has come and gone. I always think I am not bothered by it but then the day comes and my emotions are close to the surface. It doesn't seem like eight years and I miss her so much everyday. I can't wait to be together again.